Enjoy it!
Dad
Date: Fri, 22 Aug. 08
Dad has not improved since my last email, the oxygen level has been fluctuating between 70 and 100%, the rest of his organs are fine except for his kidneys, they’re not bad but they’re showing signs of stress, his hands are a little swollen today. Jan and I had a conversation with Dr Fatah this morning and he said he doesn’t seen dad getting off the machine, his lungs has not improved, and he expects the rest of his organs to deteriorate.
I want to get him off the machine, Courtney and Elena agrees with this. I want to do this tonight or tomorrow morning the latest. The dr said they will get him off the machine, give him morphing and oxygen, dad could continue breathing for hours or maybe a day or two, the dr can't say. I wish he could've told me this before but as dad would say, all they see in a patient is money.
You don’t have to be present for this; I’ll suggest you see him before the machine is disconnected. I need to know as soon as possible your thoughts so I could inform the dr. Please forget about what we could've done, the if we had done this or that, but I've told you... IT IS NOT NEEDED, we made decisions as a family and did the best we could now let's leave dad in God's Loving Hand. I am very proud of each of you and very thankful that I have a family like you.
Let's continue to pray for dad and for each other,
Love always,
Sent:
Fri 8/22/08 11:18 AM
TO my family:
I know that you were wishing him to be present for his birthday, but knowing him, it would be a year older and he did not like to be that old, neither do I. There are things we cannot control especially when we are ready to go in this case is to die. My father had an idea of what to expect, I talked to him about my ordeal and I know he is just on the door-step waiting for us to let him go. I know where he is waiting, he feels no pain or discomfort, only when we try to wake him up iis when he frowns his forehead because it is very tough, rough, loud, finding himself on the bed.
Lets give him his wings and set him free, to the especial place called heaven. Now I now why i had this experience and I thank God for allowing me to be his witness to see his home and to tell you all, he will not be alone. Brenda, Abuelita, his father and God will welcome him at His home/
My Father Manny
His favorite verse: No me digas tio, dime…. Papasito!
Don’t be a faker!
I remember the day my father and I had come back home from seeing doctor Martinez.
He was exhausted.
I left him in his room complaining on how little he slept because of his back ache...now I know it was his lung aching him.
I also noticed that his feet were swollen, I offer him to go to the hospital but he refused to stating para que me quiten mas sangre...no!
he commented how unhappy he felt to be sick and old and that it was time to go with God because it was His Will.
That was the last day I saw of him. I went back to Freehold. I was homeless; since May 24 until July 1.
I can only gathered, God had planned this series of events so I can aid my father while Carlos and family were away on vacation.
He was depressed.
On July 1, I fell with 104 fever and went to the hospital, and at the same time’
He was hospitalized in ICU. he was given oxygen, he was upset. Among the things we spoke he mentioned: Carlos was allowing mickie to suffer for selfish reasons. He remarked how faithful mickie was that even in pain he obeyed his master It was my father's suggestion to put mickey to sleep. He expressed how proud he was of Carlos along with Jan and Sara. They always kept his door open for family gatherings, making everyone feel welcome. Sargento de su hogar. Of Walter he mention how proud was to know that together with Karen they had very well educated Andrew and Helaina and he knew ;they wont eat mierda de nadies...te lo juro
About Evelyn, how he saw my mother's character.
He worried so much of Courtney's future and of the immense love he felt for Glory, Sophia, Tiffany and Vanessa ;mis nietecitas...carajo!
He also mentioned with tears rolling down his eyes how late he had learned to love JESUS .I guess he saw the end coming, I am sure he mentioned each one of us his message of he wanted to be his last life's lessons.
I strongly feel that he was saying goodbye, because the next day he was taking to ICU and was put to sleep on a artificial life supporting device. He has not communicated with any of us ever since.
But our love f
or Dad is blinding us by not letting him go when it was time. I would not have agreed for him to be in the ventilator. He hated the external tube that run across his face giving him only oxygen, and now he has a perforated trachea with a ventilator breathing for him, tubes and IV all over his neck for medicine, feeding through his nose and last but not least tubes for pichi y caqui.
I say no more on his behalf, and I demand a soul searching analysis of each of one to know that you want him on this condition, or to shut off the life supporting device and see if God will grant us His Miracle but helping him breath on his own.
His heart is still strong because that is all he wants to give us, reminding us that how much he loved us.
I remember when I was very sick, he decided to keep his distance because it was very painful for him to see me. I didn't see or spoke to him for many years and I understand him now; It is too agonizing to see him like this.
His eyes tells me he is body is still here, but his soul is gone. I ask God to grant me the same miracle HE allowed me to have when I was sick so my father can be an ambassador for Jesus Christ . Me and him will make a good team!
Julio 21-2008
Mi padre sigue en estado estable, ni mejor, ni peor.
Cuanto el ser humano tiene aguante?
Eso no me lo explico, pero si puedo opinar sobre la pobre calidad de vida que un ser vive al estar en esta condicion critica.
Toda esta experiencia me ha echo refleccionar y poder ver un poco mas claro lo necesario de tener un "Living Will"
(Testamento en Vida), muy diferente a un testamento que uno deja al morir.
En un testamento en vida, uno puede decidir si uno quisiera tener soporte de vida artificial, en el caso de mi padre, el no puede respirar por el solo. Sus pulmones estan demasiados danados por Pneumonia, asthma y otras complicaciones que le impide respirar por si solo.
Otro deceo que uno puede expresar en el testamento en vida es de no ser resucitado "Do not Ressucitate"
esto es si es que entra en un paro cardiaco, u otra forma forzada para poder sostenerlo vivo.
Todo esto evita a sus seres queridos a que respeten y acepten su decision.
PAPI
8 de julio de 2008
Estoy pasando por un período muy dificil para mi.
El egoísmo de mis sensaciones del amor, cólera, tristeza, injusticia, se mezcló todo para llegar a esta etapa: Vida y muerte.
La cruel verdad: el Alfa y la Omega, entra en términos.
Mi vida del padre está terminando.
Viéndolo débil, frágil, deteriorando, rompe mi corazón.
Grito de la agonía, inutilmente
Veo memorias vivas de mi niñez
Veo él fuerte, lleno de vida.
Escuño mis ojos
Lo veo respirar con dificultad.
¡Papa, estoy aquí!
Papa, aquí estoy
¿Papa, puedes oírme?
¡Papa!!!!!!!!!
Espero que este vez que él oyó, pero le volvere a recordar que estaré a su lado hasta que El decida.
“Pienso que encontré a Dios demasiado tarde”, “pero, deseo ir a estar con El, no
Elenita?” el dice
Lo miro confusa de su decición
Me entere que habia sido admitido al hospital el Martes, 1ro de Julio, lo admitieron al hospital con paro cardíaco congestivo. He estado a su lado desde entonces, pero me siento inútil.
Recordé leer sobre “El poder del Rezo” y decidi pedir a todas las personas que rezen por él.
¡Papi hay muchas cosas que deseo todavía
Decirte que maravilloso padre eres,
Papi estoy aqui
abre por favor los ojos, exprime mi mano si me puedes oír!
!Papi, no te vayas..no te vayas todavia!
Padre nuestro, que está en cielo, santificado es su nombre, refugia a mi padre.
Por favor, vamos todos a rezar por mi padre: Manuel Tuero aka Manny
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Con el propósito de difundir un cine más reflexivo y comprometido, El Grupo TIKSI se complace en invitar al público en general al Primer Festival de Cine por los Derechos Humanos a realizarse en la ciudad de Paterson NJ del 10 al 31 de Julio. Se proyectarán un total de 4 films hechos en el Perú, en homenaje a la comunidad peruana.y latinoamericana en general.
El Festival se llevará a cabo en el auditorio de Passaic County Community College ubicado en la esquina de Ellison St y Memorial Drive, 4 Jueves del Mes de Julio a horas 6:30 p.m. Los films han sido acreedores a varios premios internacionales y muestran problemas sociales y económicos de actualidad. A continuación nuestro programa:
Julio 10, “CHOROPAMPA”, Film de Ernesto Cabellos (Perú) y Stephanie Boyd (Canada), Idioma: Español.
Julio 17, “SOY ANDINA”. Film de Mitch Teplitski (EEUU), Idioma: Español e Inglés.
Julio 24, “TAMBOGRANDE”, Film de Ernesto Cabellos (Perú) y Stephanie Boyd (Canada); Idioma: Español.
Julio 31, “ALIAS ALEJANDRO”, de Alejandro Cárdenas Amelio (Perú-Alemania), Idioma: Español y Alemán.
Dentro del marco del festival también se presentarán muestras de las pinturas de Elena Tuero, Fernando Pomalaza y Mario Villalva. Además se contará con la actuación especial de Nélida Silva y Cynthia Paniagua, protagonistas de Soy Andina.
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